Welcome to my brand new blog. It has taken a week longer then expect but I wanted to get the look just right. The new blog rolls out along side everything else. I made the decision that the 1st of October would become ground zero for me and be the restart of a lot of things both on and off line. All my social media accounts have been deleted and new ones launched. For a long while I’ve been for want of a better word, lost and not been happy with a lot of things, especially with my running. I wasn’t enjoy racing and if I’m putting my cards on the table I’ve not enjoyed a race since the St.Valentines 30k in Feb 2017. Since then I felt everything has been on a downward spiral. Yes I’ve had moments where I’ve won something or ran a fast time but those moments only papered over the very large cracks that had begun to appear and with everything that’s happened in 2018 things have only gotten worse.
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.
So last month I finally had a moment of clarity while decorating and finally did what I knew I should’ve done a long time ago and take a massive step back from everything and look at what was causing me, the stress and issues. While a lot was self inflicted, the pressure to always perform at races. I also felt I had this public image to uphold and I felt like I wasn’t being me and being true to myself. Racing had gone from something that drove me and fuelled my passion to a noose around my neck, the social media profile that went a long side it meant I felt like I couldn’t have a bad moment, or be honest and say “you know not what, right now racing sucks!” etc. I love running and always said if I stopped or didn’t enjoy something I wouldn’t do it. Hence why I don’t do trail or fell running as I don’t like it. Yet I have not enjoyed racing as I said for a long time but kept doing it. However as of 1st of October things changed!
No more races or recording running for the rest of 2018. Running for now is firstly about finding my spark and love, then building a solid winter base. Then going forward when I know in my head I’m ready to lace up my racing shoes I will train and only race target races and limit the amount of races I do. For someone who over the years has done over 200 races I think I’m all raced out and need to really recharge and think about which races I do, the reason behind that race etc. With me taking a step back from the racing spotlight, I did the same with social media. I wanted to get rid of the old me so to speak and take my profiles back to what they were originally intended for and that’s to showcase me as both the good, the bad and the ugly. So below is my new social profiles. Links can be found in the top menu of the new website. On majority of platforms I will also be covering other parts of my day to day life.
This is also where the new blog is different, for me the blogs I’ve had have always been a sort of personal diary and my view on how my training is going and my view point of races. Well I will also start covering other passions of mine. Firstly I will be bringing you the same running articles as before but now I will also be posting LEGO articles, covering what projects and builds I’ve been working on at work. Plus I will be reviewing coffee shops I visit. Plus a whole lot more as I being the process of rebuilding. One thing I won’t be covering is anything before 1st of October with regards to running. I’m looking to the future and as I’ve said the 1st was ground zero.
Currently you will see each major category have a place holder article. This was done just so I could get the layout correct before going live. These will disappear over time when I replace them with new articles.